Wake up Call

Are you ready to feel?

Wake up Call

 I opened my heart

And let you see in it

Stepped out in risk,

Showed you my true self

 

Learned once again

Why I’m always concealing

The who I am deep down

She’s not who you’re seeking

 

For years I’ve accepted

Your frail, grave condition

Hushed up my insides

And fed your addictions

 

Frozen my heartbeat

And spiritual mission

In hopes of the slight chance

You’d change your position

 

But all that I’ve learned

From this single decision

Is I’m the one losing

Idiotic, ass reasoning!

 

Truth’s often spoken

In subtle, faint language

Inviting us close up

To hear what it’s saying…

 

“You were born into arms

Of the weakest perception;

Clinging to lies that will

Never bring happiness.”

 

Why don’t they want me?

Why won’t they listen?

I’m so sick of being

The one who is missing!

 

It’s not till we fail at

Getting the message

That life starts to scream out

And rattle our cages…

 

Walls start to puncture

From raging and fighting

Exposing a new side

Dysfunction recycling

 

Head on I see her

In sparkling, clear glass,

The same woman stares back,

“It’s me!  I’m a part of this!”

 

Rolling it over

I pace with new insight

–inhale and exhale—

Till I’m finally inspired…

 

“I can’t be the person,

They groomed me to be,

I’m not her, she’s not me,

I’m going to feel.”

 

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Phoenix Inspiring

Twelve years ago, my life was heading in a very different direction. I was directing a dance and gymnastics program that I built from the ground up which I was highly passionate about. Had my daughter not been diagnosed with autism, I would likely still be pursuing this career today. Because she was diagnosed with autism, my life has been forever changed. Along my parenting autism journey, I was gifted with what I came to understand as a spiritual awakening. It wasn’t something I went looking for, rather something that happened, and as a result, has endowed me with a wealth of knowledge and insights that I feel inspired to share with others.

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